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Almost normal. The struggle of going out.

Almost normal, like the life of everyone else.

Perhaps I shouldn’t be saying this, should I?

Mind and body playing tricky games with me lately, many of the things that should be on track are stuck, holidays are over, so the machine should be on full throttle right? Even here on the blog some posts should be already published by now, and they’re still pending… Inspiration, concentration, focus, energy, not very much on my side lately.

Now to the point.

Solitude, which turns into loneliness easily is something my psycho doc and my therapist have told me to strongly avoid. The latter has said: “don’t get locked at home, go out with some friends, to the movies, to museums, for a walk at a nice park…”. The idea is not bad at all, not so practical though: closer to where I live aside a few shopping malls there’s not much action, for that the Centro Historico (Downtown), Coyoacan or the areas between and close around from there are the way to go; talking about culture and art this area nearby is metaphorically speaking, dead really.

Not only that, I used to go to train rope access techniques one, two, or even three times weekly, the place is across the city from home, which can take, making use of suburban bus and subway, on the short, at least 1:45 hours, on the long, close to 3 hours!

I did it for years, never reluctantly, never feeling public transportation was not good enough for me, going training or other places, by myself.

Since late November 2016, for those who haven’t read about it here on this blog, when that bad depression and anxiety relapse came, the first months I remained locked at home with the exception of going with the doctor or the therapist, by car or with the aid of Uber once, just a few subway stations, picked up by friends and family on the way home. A couple of months later the idea of getting into the subway was still not pleasing at all, but I had to anyway.

Long before the darkest months, more than a year I think, taking the subway meant a small degree of uneasy, kind of anxious sensations, something to deal with… After the falling though it turned into a dark, confusing experience, a sordid trail. The long waits for the train to arrive, minute after minute after minute of facing somber thoughts and anxiety while surrounded, pushed, crushed by human masses, loud, really loud noises, the overwhelming load of people coming and going, chatting here and there, guys with huge loudspeakers selling “music”… unbearable cacophony…

Some degree of recovery has allowed me to go inside the dark alleys again but the fact is that getting in there is still not nice at all for me, so I try not to take the plunge that route. For months I’ve stayed at home most of the days, for me going out is a possibility of finding restlessness and exposing myself to very stressful moments, wether facing the city traffic while driving or making use of the “Metro” as we call Mexico City’s subway the sensory overload is something I’m not so used to anymore. In fact some have invited me to join them going making photos, to chat for a few hours or the like and I’ve had to decline more than once since the experience is not pleasing for me, nor is very healthy.

For long I’ve wanted to share this very short series of images of what that experience has been for me. I carry a camera almost everywhere I go, images are an easier way for me to communicate what I feel or think so I portrayed some of those anguishing moments months ago. The images are from February 2016.

Piel de siclicio 1

Piel de siclicio 1 by Ojo de Piedra
Piel de siclicio 1, a photo by Ojo de Piedra on Flickr.

El vidrio va sustituyendo a la piedra y el concreto a medida que se llena de modernos edificios el paisaje de la Ciudad de México. He aquí uno de mis primeros encuentros visuales con esta tendencia arquitectónica.

Glass is taking the place of stone and concrete as the cityscape of “Ciudad de Mexico” is filled with modern buildings. Here is one of my first encounters with these architectural tendency.

Lo silvestre invade la casa.

Si uno no va a la Naturaleza, la Naturaleza viene a uno!

Uno de los cocos de los que nos gusta fotografiar el entorno natural y sus criaturas es el vivir en áreas urbanas, un coco que en ocasiones afortunadas se desvanece entre las luces.

Cerca del fraccionamiento hay algunos llanos cerca y bueno el jardín de la casa también ayuda a que tengamos algunas visitas silvestres adentro y que si tienen la fortuna de sobrevivir a mis dos gatos deambulan a su antojo. Hace unas cuantas noches había dejado un Flash SB-800 de Nikon montado en un tripié por un par de dias, y de reojo me llamó la atención ésta arañita que colgaba balanceándose, traté de ubicarla en un lugar menos expuesto pero me ganó el pequeño arácnido, al tocarla rápidamente subió por su hilo y tomó posición el el sensor de luz del flash, donde se sintió tan segura que me permitió armar mi cámara con un 50mm y un juego de tubos de extensión para hacer acercamientos (juguete que me encontré de segunda mano y que le ha abierto nuevas posibilidades a mis close-ups y del que les contaré la siguiente ocasión), iluminar con otro flash y tomarle un par de fotos al bicho.

Me pregunto: ¿por cuánto tiempo había la arañita hecho su base en el flash?